Thursday, August 30, 2007

m i wrong??

luckily this blog just a few people know...
only my good friends know...
really lucky...
everybody, promise me dun tell others, when u finish reading this blog, leave ur comment, n forget it... please..

luckily, flower when you advertise for me no people layan you...
coz now we got problem liao...
aiz..
i dont know how to say, and now i feel very trouble and blur...
i dont know what he thinks now...
why he want to do the decision like this...

everybody, yesterday i had skipped the pengajian malaysia class for cooking leong tea for him, because he sick already...
then me myself also sick ady,
however, when i took the things to him, he smile...
and also, all of our friends laugh us...
and at the night, i ask him for go out next week when i come back from my hometown,
but...
he suddenly ask me this question...
from sms lar...
and this is our dialog

nick: do u think seriously that are we really suitable to each other? dun simply find a people and love... this is wrong...
elaine: ya, i know, but i even dun know what u r thinking, u never told me before, how i know what you want? and now u just let me feel that i m a fool...
nick: no, is it better if we just be a friend? i love the feel when i gaduh with u, i dun like tian2 yan2 mi4 yu3
elaine: i din force u also, i really dun know what are you thinking now... is it means that what skye had told me is a fake? what u told me yesterday that your action had prove that u love me is fake? and all the things i had done today is shit? and all are just i myself think too much...
nick: no, dun like this, friend is also can concern to each other and can buy medic...
elaine: ok, i know ady, all is just myself yi4 xiang qing2 yuan4... then, just b a fren lar, and thx for ur dinner today...
nick: we are still friend ar! sleep earlier, dun think too much, it is bad for health if sleep late, and u r sick, remember to eat medic, remember to cover a blanket... nite...

see, what is going on now?????
i dun know...
m i wrong ady??
i m a fool... i should not lisen about what skye told me, i should not...
but i had done it all, and now make myself trouble...
what should i do now??
m i shi lian4 ady??
i dun know...
before that day, i told u before, he said it! said he likes me, but ow come only one night and all had changed ady??
where is the problem? what is the problem?
and what's wrong??
i dun know...
really dont...
tell me what to do...
almost crazy...

i dont want to believe that this is my dream, coz i really feel that he is got feeling at me,
everybody, if just a friend, will u get a msg to ask u remember to cover a blanket when u sleep, ask u have ur dine, ask u concentrate of study, ask u sleep early EVERY NIGHT BEFORE U SLEEP??
and he just your NORMAL FRIEND!!
i cant believe it...
even is my ex, he also never do these kind of things when we together,
so...
how can i believe that??
what should i do now???
help......

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

if you think u still can be the "friend" that he said, then Just do it(Nike..dont sue me)

男朋友是背負著多一點責任的朋友...
也許是他還不想背負著這些責任...
不懂啦.
有時候,大家都會想找個可以借肩膀靠,但又不需要有什麼責任關係的朋友
他應該還是很想當你的"好朋友"
整理一下心情,再想想自己要怎樣做囉...
(講錯話不要打我>.<|||)

shan said...

slap u juon!!!!
luan luan jiang hua!!!
elaine, i think maybe u r rite he loves u , but this doesnt mean that he wans to be together with u ,
i think it is too fast oredi la..give
some time for u 2 la...
and love is 2 ways de...if u 2 really ready then just do it (NIKE sue juon first )...but maybe the timing has not reached yet
anyway we will support u de ...but now better concentrate on ur studies

Anonymous said...

ya i think maybe u are right he oso likes you but this doesnt mean that he wants to be together with you

Anonymous said...

沉淀你的心情,把心思专注在课业上,无论什么事情,我们都会支持你的!!!we will always be there for u !!

elaine ng said...

ya, thanks all of you...
support me till now...
dun worry, i now ok lor...
nothing can let me lose de...
wakaka
i very jian qiang de...
hehehe
anyway, i think may b now we still b a friend is better gua...
n i ask my mum ady, she wont allow me with a hair stylist ler...
aiz..
sien....